Why I don’t have Facebook

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Queen Elsa from Disney’s hit film “Frozen” wasn’t exactly the only one who froze a heart that year. The difference between that irony is that I did it for the 8,000 followers that requested me to.

Growing up I had multiple health-related conditions that I needed to receive medicinal treatments for and had to be hospitalized on multiple occasions, but nobody was going to tell me what was best for myself, because I was 15 and Facebook famous.

Post self-reflection to where I am now, I’m almost embarrassed of what my social media consisted of. I was a character that had to be played. I had lost DeyJa and became Mickey, my famous alter ego who was well known in my Denver home town. It’s embarrassing but it’s true, and I think it’s relevant to share my reasoning because I’m not the only person who grew away from the toxicity of social media. Some people might argue that social media is not toxic unless you make it toxic for yourself, which is a fair argument, except the human-controlled universe of publishing advertisements are influencing everything we do, say and buy without our own knowledge. Media controls the way we view the world. Without the media we wouldn’t know what is going on in the world. Unless, you’re 15 and Facebook famous, the “real news” becomes irrelevant, and what matters, or what mattered to me and my friends, was what are the people into and what are they watching?

I became the person who wanted to do the crazily ridiculous stunts that made people drop their jaws, and I wasn’t alone. In fact, according to a publication found in the Journal of Family Medicine and Primary Care, 259 people died taking selfies between October 2011 and November 2017. This need to be internet famous is an addictive behavior that can be overseen as obsessive or even compulsive in some circumstances, and I speak from experience. I would say, I let social media peer pressure me in the more negative ways. In no way am I saying that social media is all toxic, I’m just saying that we must leave those stupid stunts in the past. Let’s bring positivity to social media from 2019 and on.

I kept up with the Facebook fame for about a year until I decided that I took it too far. I was born with an irregular heartbeat and when I did a stunt that my followers had been requesting, I almost sent my heart into cardiac arrest because of the shock that I put my body through. I was underweight because I had been suffering from an eating disorder, pre-influenced by social media as well, and when my followers had requested me to brace the Colorado cold and dive into a pile of snow in a bikini, my heart couldn’t handle it. I recovered rather quickly, but slowly after, I reasoned that I had to take a step back and realize what I was doing was ridiculous and completely not worth the “likes.”

If you know me personally, you would know how spontaneous I am. One morning, I deleted all of my social media platforms and haven’t looked back since. I’m now a low-key street artist who graduated with my GED in 5 months, going on my second year at Washburn and being the best possible role model I could be for my 3-year-old, who, ironically, doesn’t let me go outside in the snow without my coat on.